Sunday, May 18, 2008

pics.



here is a pic of emmza and emmaza's eyeball!
isn't the eye just too cool?
btw, i took all these pics.
later i'll post some kitty pics!

weekend at last...ect




hey, i know its been a while.
yesterday was my cousin Becca's wedding! it was very fun, even if it was 100 degrees out.
this is my first attempt at pics! and it works.
the top is the happy newly weds, Becca and Kyle,  outside the Oakland LDS temple.
below that is the cake. it was chocolate, with withe chocolate icing,. yum. there was one layer of vanilla, as my cousin Becca put it 'for the lame people that don't like chocolate.' it was Delicious!

below that is me and my cousin Lara. we, out of all people, caught the bouquet, at exactly the same time, so we spilt it.
the funny thing is, less that 30 minutes before, we had been talking about not wanting to get married. i only wanted the flowers 'cause they were pretty. i don't even have a boyfriend!


 tomorrow i get to get up at 5 am to got to tahoe...only for one day, wich is lame. its kinda dumb to drive for 4 hours, talk with family for maybe 6 hours, then turn around and go home....but i can't get out of it, so im going. i'd rather be home, making that poster for my science presentation....oh well.

anyway, more later

Thursday, May 15, 2008

its so hot out...

im not used to this weather in may...ug. i need ice cream.

in other news, we had a spanish test today. i think i did pretty well.it was almost fun. almost. it was a test, so it wasn't fun.

latley i've been listening to 'the sea of monsters', by rick riodan. i got the chance to meet him last night. it was the best. it wasn't as crowded as the time i met Erin Hunter, but it was still fairly busy. i'd geuss about 60 people. while i wait to talk to him and get my books signed, i read comics  at the book store.
it was really fun, and all the other kids were really excited. i noticed some parents had read the books, and were also pretty excited. all in all, it was great.

and school was cool today as well. my english/history teachers are a team, and the decided it was too hot to work, so after 30 minutes of note taking on athens and sparta and crete, we started watching juno.
tomorrow their gonna watch blood diamond, and im going to the library, and get some reading done. im cool with that, id much rather hang on the comp, or read some fruits basket or warriors, or sea of monsters than watch a movie. not like i get a choice, its rated 'r', and thats one thing mom's strick about.

i bet im the only 9th grader in my school that still has, and uses on a weekly baisis, a casset player. i brought it to school today, so i copuld listen to this one audio book that the library only has in tape form, and about 10 people(students) are al like 'whats that?' so i explain it to them, and there like 'why don't you use an i pod' so i tell em that i have an i pod, but the batteries dead, and i havent put much one it anyway. i prefer cds and tapes anyway. but the looks the gave it were hilarious. and the spell check thing refuses to work, so yeah.

this was a very upbeat post. if only all of mine could be that way. i get the feeling that pretty soon the'rll be a pretty dark one....
anyway, more later

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

so...

hey all. not much new.
i discovered that a favorite author of mine is related to my young women' leader at church, so that's pretty cool, and i'm going to meet another author, the man who wrote the 'percy jackson and the Olympians' series, tonight.

i had an odd conversation with my friend today about a book called leven thumps. one of the charaters is called geth, and he some how be came a seed, then a tree, then a toothipick. the conversation was as follows
me: geth's cool, for a toothipick, but come on, he's a toothpick!
friend : so? i like him.
me: HE'S A TOOTHPICK!
friend: so?
me: a TOOTHPICK!
friend :well,  he's a hot toothpick.
me : sigh.

read leven thumps to find out who geth is!!!!!

just now, the nest that siv and rafa built fell. i guess they're gone. i didn't find any broken eggs, so i guess they didn't have babies.

what else can i talk about?hmmm.
i give up.
i guess i could post another book rieviw/teaser/whatever thing...
or not.
umm.
i got to go
anyway, more later

Saturday, May 10, 2008

my rather icky day

(devoid of emotion) hey
(depressed sounding)
today was supossed to be awsome. i was going to a party for a good friend, then eating ice cream with my girls camp group, then having a sleepover with candi.
first the party was canceled, but i was still happy. i mean, i was gonna hang out with some friends that night. then candi calls, and cansles the sleepover. i wasn't ticked, or angery with her, i understood, it was mothersday the next day, i was sad, but cool.

then came the ice cream. that was when all happyness died. don't get me wrong, i had an ok time. i still got to talk with a few freinds, and remince about last year's camp. but..
about 15 minutes before the others got to the fenton's, where we were meeting, i call my friend, holly( i don't have a nicname for you yet holly, sorry!), to make sure shes comming. she says shes in the car now, with bella...and brynn.
for those of you that have known me, and i mean REALLY known me, you'll understand the signifigance of those last two words...
i don't blame holly at all, she didn't even know brynn was comming.

see, brynn and i used to be friends.
but i was allways immature, and a pain, i admitt, and finaly, we ...just stopped. i was bummbed, i didn't get that i was in the wrong, like i do now. but i hate it when people are mad at me, so i kept trying to fix it. i hate confrontation, but i think i was pleanty polite when i told brynn i was sorry for what ever i'd done, and we didn't have to be friends, but could we be civle to each other?

that was when the lies began. about me. stealling, and...other things. soon, all the sevanth graders, and some of the younger kids too, hated me. once again, i was the freaky reader girl with few friends. but this time it was worse, i had no friends. and this time, no one would even try, aside from a handful of fifth/ fourth graders.
i went to depression concling for over a year and a half. i wrote and wrote and wrote eveything that had happend in jornals, big coposition note books. my words of fear and saddness and lonlinees and hate filled 3 in seventh grade alone.

i wanted to die. i was miserable. i had few friends, no one in my grade, no one to be exicted with for graduation, no one to laugh with in class, no one to pass notes to. in dance, only my brother would dance with me. no one else would touch me, not even my wrist. those years were some of the worse, because i had not kiyo, no linden, no eden to tell. i couldn't tell the younger kids. it was hell.
and all because of brynn.

so when bella first said she was friends with her, i was like 'What,! because i colnt belive it. this girl had atculy tried to pin the blame of one of the lies on bella, but i wasn't fooled. i accepted it though. i know i can't choose other's friends.
but today was to much. when bella brough brynn to this, this party, i felt my insides churnning, yearning to take brynn aside and scream at her,' how could you' and say i was sorry at the same time. i felt horrible. i got though the evening, but i hardly cracked a smile. i felt like just rumming of and crying. that was im doing now, facing my memories, the memories i tried to keep locked away. im just so shocked that bella could do this, bring the girl she knows destroyed me to this party, where i was suposed to be planning and having fun. i'm still reeling. i couln't leave, both my parents were busy, but oh how i wanted to leave, to run, to hide, to go home and cry and supress the memories. but they don't stop, i can still see her there, queen, her friends jeering at me, laughing when i hurt myself in pe, throwing things and calling insults, and laughing... the sound of her laughter hurts, hurts me inside so bad. and thats all i hear tonight.
i've tried to forgive her, i really have. i've prayed about it, prayed and prayed and tried. but i can't. i just can't. i hope tomorrow will be better. bella, i don't care about what you think now. tomoorow i'll probably be freaking out, thinking 'bella, please don't hate me', but right now, i am so... i don't know
angry and horrifide and tick off and heartbroken and shocked and upset and angry. thinking, how could you, and why and how could you do this to me.
and you know what!? frankly, im disapointed in you. disapointed and sorry. sorry that you can just forget. i just hope YOU don't act crazy around her. because that how i was, and it'll just be a matter of time. i don't give a flea's butt how this makes you feel, to me, right now, you deserve it.
anyway, more later.

Friday, May 9, 2008

BHS drama week summary+ today.

MONDAY: nothing much. only free day.
TUESDAY: imigration people try to get on campus. we don't let them. nots of kids are scared.
WENSDAY: armed robbery, school goes into temporary lock down, all of us freak, and THEY (i don't know who THEY are) want to send a SWAT team to fix it, but they catch the guy with out it.
THURSDAY: a kid gets stabbed and goes to the ER.
TODAY: fire alarm goes of. a real one, not a drill. turns out that a mandrin class was making wantons and they caught fire, or blew up the microwave, or somthing. we sckip 2 period.

and thats the bhs drama week. i wonder if it will continue... i hope not.

today i was on the bus, writeing the epolog to my novle, because i had an idea ()i jump around quite a bit) and when i look up...not only did i miss my stop, but...im at then end of the line, (sorta) on grizzly peak, about to leave berekely. the driver lets me off, and i turn around, and then it hits me. im lost. so i go in the gernarl direction of my house , and i'm still lost, no clue where i am, and my phones dead, and i'm argueing with my self, im lost, no im not , yes i am, no im not, and finaly i get to wear i sorta-kinda know where i am, and i get home ok. thats it for now...
oh, wait.
i read a very good book to day, called 'golden and grey, the story of an unremarkable boy and a rather remarkable ghost' it was very funny, and exciting. and it had a happy ending. i love happy endings.
although bitter-sweet endings are ok. but not really sad ones, like romeo and juliette. ugg, no. now, if say, juliette died saving romeo's life or vice versa, and DID NOT KILL THEMSELFS after ward, then i might like it. maybe.
anyway, more later

Thursday, May 8, 2008

my cat is sitting on my lap and he won't get off?

walker won't get off my lap, but its ok because he's being a purrbox too...i'm watching digimon season 1 episode 13 right now...go PATAMON!!! DIGIVOLVE!!!! HURRY!!!!!


ok, im done now.
today i rode my bike to school, and took the bus home. my legs is sore, and my cat makes them feel happy..... i need a new poetry not book, my old one, or ratjher ,the one im useing now, is covered in duct tape. to hold it together
let me see, i need a nother topic!


OH!!
BHS DRAMA WEEK CONT.
on tuseday the immagration ppl tried to get on campus, and lots of people were very scared....i saw them through the classrom window. then,on wednesday the school went into lockdown because of an armed robbery across the street. today, aparently (three differnt eye witnesses that don't know each other told me this) a 1oth grader picked/got in a fight with a homeless guy, and the guy came after him (the tenth grader) with a knife....the kids ok, from what i've heard, but the paramedics and police were all over the place, and the immagration people are still hanging around berkely/bay area region,  and  SIGH, this is a very dramatic week. my friend, shayla, thinks that tomorrow there will either be a bomb threat or a fire alarm....
my friend jS thinks someones gonna die, but i doubt both of them...
i'm thinking i should just stay home.
a few other people had the same thoughs as me though, because in 6th period, that was all people talked about, at least in my class room, about what was gonna happen tomorrow.  all i have to say on the subeject is this : who knows, but i'll be ready, i hope.
are you people reading this? some ppl just read the first bits of my longer posts, but i try to make them as random as i can. i think my most funny/interting/random one is the first one i did in april. read it, if you haven't already. then go to the bookstore and read chapter one of "warriors, into the wild' by erin hunter. or any book, but read somthing!!!! reading is knowlage, and knowlage is POWER!!!
but then, ignorance is bliss...both are correct, in my opinon. and thats what blogs are for, right? opinions. and i know i can't spell, but my comp Still wont work SPELL CHECK. i love spell check. i am going to try to fix it. i can't spell without it. oh well. im going to make random words bold, so that you will read them... i may, or may not have hidden messages.
my cat is getting up now..and hes gone...and he wants out. well, tough beans, mr. cat, im not done blogging yet.
so. HI EVERY ONE!!!!!!!!
im not hper anymore...hmm. i can't wait till saturday.... im going to sleep in, then work outside for an hour, ride my bike to the pool, take the bus back, ride my bike down to the park to meet an old friend of mine to talk, then bus home, them go to fentons, and have a sleepover...... YAY!
anyways, more later

my kittys many names!

ok!
LUCY: luce, lucy, little lady. little lucy lady, lady, lil' lucy, SC, sweet heart, honey, cutie, kitty, whitewhisker, ki.
WALKER: squwalker-walker, OSC, cat, mosse, brownshoulders, mr. kitty, mr. cat, mr. boy, nutcase, walker, nutball,fuzz wump, ki.

i think thats all.

hola, hello, good morning......

hello world.
seminary struck again, but at least mr. mike brought donuts!!
on the other hand, he refuses to believe that i have cats, and thats a problem....so everyone that has been to my house and knows i have cats, please post a comment. thanks!
mr. kitty and lll (little lucy lady) hasven't fought in a while, so thats good ( and yes, i have a # of names for my kittys, i'll post them all later.)
YW was awsome last night! JR and NJ took us (me and ZF)) out for ice cream, but the iphone (i want one!!!) told us the wrong address, so we just went to andronico's and got a box of popcicles.
i was SOOOO sugar high!!!!!!!
anyway, more later!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

re-update on the last update!

ok! im safe at home now.
the story:
across from our school, someone (two someones, i think) were/was robbed at gunpoint....so we were in our classes  for about 45,minutes to an hour extra, as a safty precaution, untill they caugt the guy...a student (? i think) or the suspect was caught, but they haven't found the gun yet. weew, im glad its over. it was SCARY!!!!! a bunch of kids in my friends class were crying thinking they were gonna die...and i'll admit, i was pretty freaked....

on to other stuff....

in the bay area, immigration people are doing sweeps for illigal immigrants, and they are pretty much questioning ANYONE who looks hispanic/latino/a...so all our teachers are telling us our rights and stuff. on wendsay on next week, all the bhs students are gonna do somthing...intersting...involving the press, so you'll all probably hear about it thursday morning!
for now, most of us are getting bands of brown cloth to show solidarity. wear em with pride and protest the sweeps!!! familys should not be separated!

thats about it. im of to take photos of 'old things' ("hey, mom, can you come here for a minute?" j/k)c ya!

anyway, more later!

update on the last update

THE SCHOOL IS IN TOTAL LOCK DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I NEED TO PEE!
AND I NEED A BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE ARN"T ALOUD TO LEAVE OUR CLASSROOMS!

WHY DID I NOT BRING ANY BOOKS TODAY, OF ALL DAYS!!!!

but most important THE SCHOOL IS IN TOTAL LOCK DOWN!!!

weekly update?

or not so weekly...who cares?

ok, so lets see.... i re-read the most tragic and beautiful part of the warrriors:the new prophecy books.... won't give anything away!

and i read twilight! for the record, i read it for school.
i have now read 3 books called twilight. one bout vampires, one bout ghosts, and one bout kittys (warriors!)

for those of you who haven't seen it, check out 'the shot gun song' on you tube, it is very funny.
uh....
this weekend is the girls camp party, so layna, see you there!!! and i'm having a sleepover afterward! all in all, i've had a pretty great week, even though i've been ill with a cold!
thats all...oh wait!

one more thing. as of now, my school is kinda sorta in lock down, so im stuck in my classroom, typing away. no details yet, but i'll keep you all posted.
anyway, more later