here is a pic of emmza and emmaza's eyeball!
isn't the eye just too cool?
btw, i took all these pics.
later i'll post some kitty pics!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
pics.
here is a pic of emmza and emmaza's eyeball!
isn't the eye just too cool?
btw, i took all these pics.
later i'll post some kitty pics!
weekend at last...ect
hey, i know its been a while.
yesterday was my cousin Becca's wedding! it was very fun, even if it was 100 degrees out.
this is my first attempt at pics! and it works.
the top is the happy newly weds, Becca and Kyle, outside the Oakland LDS temple.
below that is the cake. it was chocolate, with withe chocolate icing,. yum. there was one layer of vanilla, as my cousin Becca put it 'for the lame people that don't like chocolate.' it was Delicious!
below that is me and my cousin Lara. we, out of all people, caught the bouquet, at exactly the same time, so we spilt it.
the funny thing is, less that 30 minutes before, we had been talking about not wanting to get married. i only wanted the flowers 'cause they were pretty. i don't even have a boyfriend!
tomorrow i get to get up at 5 am to got to tahoe...only for one day, wich is lame. its kinda dumb to drive for 4 hours, talk with family for maybe 6 hours, then turn around and go home....but i can't get out of it, so im going. i'd rather be home, making that poster for my science presentation....oh well.
anyway, more later
Thursday, May 15, 2008
its so hot out...
im not used to this weather in may...ug. i need ice cream.
in other news, we had a spanish test today. i think i did pretty well.it was almost fun. almost. it was a test, so it wasn't fun.
latley i've been listening to 'the sea of monsters', by rick riodan. i got the chance to meet him last night. it was the best. it wasn't as crowded as the time i met Erin Hunter, but it was still fairly busy. i'd geuss about 60 people. while i wait to talk to him and get my books signed, i read comics at the book store.
it was really fun, and all the other kids were really excited. i noticed some parents had read the books, and were also pretty excited. all in all, it was great.
and school was cool today as well. my english/history teachers are a team, and the decided it was too hot to work, so after 30 minutes of note taking on athens and sparta and crete, we started watching juno.
tomorrow their gonna watch blood diamond, and im going to the library, and get some reading done. im cool with that, id much rather hang on the comp, or read some fruits basket or warriors, or sea of monsters than watch a movie. not like i get a choice, its rated 'r', and thats one thing mom's strick about.
i bet im the only 9th grader in my school that still has, and uses on a weekly baisis, a casset player. i brought it to school today, so i copuld listen to this one audio book that the library only has in tape form, and about 10 people(students) are al like 'whats that?' so i explain it to them, and there like 'why don't you use an i pod' so i tell em that i have an i pod, but the batteries dead, and i havent put much one it anyway. i prefer cds and tapes anyway. but the looks the gave it were hilarious. and the spell check thing refuses to work, so yeah.
this was a very upbeat post. if only all of mine could be that way. i get the feeling that pretty soon the'rll be a pretty dark one....
anyway, more later
in other news, we had a spanish test today. i think i did pretty well.it was almost fun. almost. it was a test, so it wasn't fun.
latley i've been listening to 'the sea of monsters', by rick riodan. i got the chance to meet him last night. it was the best. it wasn't as crowded as the time i met Erin Hunter, but it was still fairly busy. i'd geuss about 60 people. while i wait to talk to him and get my books signed, i read comics at the book store.
it was really fun, and all the other kids were really excited. i noticed some parents had read the books, and were also pretty excited. all in all, it was great.
and school was cool today as well. my english/history teachers are a team, and the decided it was too hot to work, so after 30 minutes of note taking on athens and sparta and crete, we started watching juno.
tomorrow their gonna watch blood diamond, and im going to the library, and get some reading done. im cool with that, id much rather hang on the comp, or read some fruits basket or warriors, or sea of monsters than watch a movie. not like i get a choice, its rated 'r', and thats one thing mom's strick about.
i bet im the only 9th grader in my school that still has, and uses on a weekly baisis, a casset player. i brought it to school today, so i copuld listen to this one audio book that the library only has in tape form, and about 10 people(students) are al like 'whats that?' so i explain it to them, and there like 'why don't you use an i pod' so i tell em that i have an i pod, but the batteries dead, and i havent put much one it anyway. i prefer cds and tapes anyway. but the looks the gave it were hilarious. and the spell check thing refuses to work, so yeah.
this was a very upbeat post. if only all of mine could be that way. i get the feeling that pretty soon the'rll be a pretty dark one....
anyway, more later
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
so...
hey all. not much new.
i discovered that a favorite author of mine is related to my young women' leader at church, so that's pretty cool, and i'm going to meet another author, the man who wrote the 'percy jackson and the Olympians' series, tonight.
i had an odd conversation with my friend today about a book called leven thumps. one of the charaters is called geth, and he some how be came a seed, then a tree, then a toothipick. the conversation was as follows
me: geth's cool, for a toothipick, but come on, he's a toothpick!
friend : so? i like him.
me: HE'S A TOOTHPICK!
friend: so?
me: a TOOTHPICK!
friend :well, he's a hot toothpick.
me : sigh.
read leven thumps to find out who geth is!!!!!
just now, the nest that siv and rafa built fell. i guess they're gone. i didn't find any broken eggs, so i guess they didn't have babies.
what else can i talk about?hmmm.
i give up.
i guess i could post another book rieviw/teaser/whatever thing...
or not.
umm.
i got to go
anyway, more later
i discovered that a favorite author of mine is related to my young women' leader at church, so that's pretty cool, and i'm going to meet another author, the man who wrote the 'percy jackson and the Olympians' series, tonight.
i had an odd conversation with my friend today about a book called leven thumps. one of the charaters is called geth, and he some how be came a seed, then a tree, then a toothipick. the conversation was as follows
me: geth's cool, for a toothipick, but come on, he's a toothpick!
friend : so? i like him.
me: HE'S A TOOTHPICK!
friend: so?
me: a TOOTHPICK!
friend :well, he's a hot toothpick.
me : sigh.
read leven thumps to find out who geth is!!!!!
just now, the nest that siv and rafa built fell. i guess they're gone. i didn't find any broken eggs, so i guess they didn't have babies.
what else can i talk about?hmmm.
i give up.
i guess i could post another book rieviw/teaser/whatever thing...
or not.
umm.
i got to go
anyway, more later
Saturday, May 10, 2008
my rather icky day
(devoid of emotion) hey
(depressed sounding)
today was supossed to be awsome. i was going to a party for a good friend, then eating ice cream with my girls camp group, then having a sleepover with candi.
first the party was canceled, but i was still happy. i mean, i was gonna hang out with some friends that night. then candi calls, and cansles the sleepover. i wasn't ticked, or angery with her, i understood, it was mothersday the next day, i was sad, but cool.
then came the ice cream. that was when all happyness died. don't get me wrong, i had an ok time. i still got to talk with a few freinds, and remince about last year's camp. but..
about 15 minutes before the others got to the fenton's, where we were meeting, i call my friend, holly( i don't have a nicname for you yet holly, sorry!), to make sure shes comming. she says shes in the car now, with bella...and brynn.
for those of you that have known me, and i mean REALLY known me, you'll understand the signifigance of those last two words...
i don't blame holly at all, she didn't even know brynn was comming.
see, brynn and i used to be friends.
but i was allways immature, and a pain, i admitt, and finaly, we ...just stopped. i was bummbed, i didn't get that i was in the wrong, like i do now. but i hate it when people are mad at me, so i kept trying to fix it. i hate confrontation, but i think i was pleanty polite when i told brynn i was sorry for what ever i'd done, and we didn't have to be friends, but could we be civle to each other?
that was when the lies began. about me. stealling, and...other things. soon, all the sevanth graders, and some of the younger kids too, hated me. once again, i was the freaky reader girl with few friends. but this time it was worse, i had no friends. and this time, no one would even try, aside from a handful of fifth/ fourth graders.
i went to depression concling for over a year and a half. i wrote and wrote and wrote eveything that had happend in jornals, big coposition note books. my words of fear and saddness and lonlinees and hate filled 3 in seventh grade alone.
i wanted to die. i was miserable. i had few friends, no one in my grade, no one to be exicted with for graduation, no one to laugh with in class, no one to pass notes to. in dance, only my brother would dance with me. no one else would touch me, not even my wrist. those years were some of the worse, because i had not kiyo, no linden, no eden to tell. i couldn't tell the younger kids. it was hell.
and all because of brynn.
so when bella first said she was friends with her, i was like 'What,! because i colnt belive it. this girl had atculy tried to pin the blame of one of the lies on bella, but i wasn't fooled. i accepted it though. i know i can't choose other's friends.
but today was to much. when bella brough brynn to this, this party, i felt my insides churnning, yearning to take brynn aside and scream at her,' how could you' and say i was sorry at the same time. i felt horrible. i got though the evening, but i hardly cracked a smile. i felt like just rumming of and crying. that was im doing now, facing my memories, the memories i tried to keep locked away. im just so shocked that bella could do this, bring the girl she knows destroyed me to this party, where i was suposed to be planning and having fun. i'm still reeling. i couln't leave, both my parents were busy, but oh how i wanted to leave, to run, to hide, to go home and cry and supress the memories. but they don't stop, i can still see her there, queen, her friends jeering at me, laughing when i hurt myself in pe, throwing things and calling insults, and laughing... the sound of her laughter hurts, hurts me inside so bad. and thats all i hear tonight.
i've tried to forgive her, i really have. i've prayed about it, prayed and prayed and tried. but i can't. i just can't. i hope tomorrow will be better. bella, i don't care about what you think now. tomoorow i'll probably be freaking out, thinking 'bella, please don't hate me', but right now, i am so... i don't know
angry and horrifide and tick off and heartbroken and shocked and upset and angry. thinking, how could you, and why and how could you do this to me.
and you know what!? frankly, im disapointed in you. disapointed and sorry. sorry that you can just forget. i just hope YOU don't act crazy around her. because that how i was, and it'll just be a matter of time. i don't give a flea's butt how this makes you feel, to me, right now, you deserve it.
anyway, more later.
(depressed sounding)
today was supossed to be awsome. i was going to a party for a good friend, then eating ice cream with my girls camp group, then having a sleepover with candi.
first the party was canceled, but i was still happy. i mean, i was gonna hang out with some friends that night. then candi calls, and cansles the sleepover. i wasn't ticked, or angery with her, i understood, it was mothersday the next day, i was sad, but cool.
then came the ice cream. that was when all happyness died. don't get me wrong, i had an ok time. i still got to talk with a few freinds, and remince about last year's camp. but..
about 15 minutes before the others got to the fenton's, where we were meeting, i call my friend, holly( i don't have a nicname for you yet holly, sorry!), to make sure shes comming. she says shes in the car now, with bella...and brynn.
for those of you that have known me, and i mean REALLY known me, you'll understand the signifigance of those last two words...
i don't blame holly at all, she didn't even know brynn was comming.
see, brynn and i used to be friends.
but i was allways immature, and a pain, i admitt, and finaly, we ...just stopped. i was bummbed, i didn't get that i was in the wrong, like i do now. but i hate it when people are mad at me, so i kept trying to fix it. i hate confrontation, but i think i was pleanty polite when i told brynn i was sorry for what ever i'd done, and we didn't have to be friends, but could we be civle to each other?
that was when the lies began. about me. stealling, and...other things. soon, all the sevanth graders, and some of the younger kids too, hated me. once again, i was the freaky reader girl with few friends. but this time it was worse, i had no friends. and this time, no one would even try, aside from a handful of fifth/ fourth graders.
i went to depression concling for over a year and a half. i wrote and wrote and wrote eveything that had happend in jornals, big coposition note books. my words of fear and saddness and lonlinees and hate filled 3 in seventh grade alone.
i wanted to die. i was miserable. i had few friends, no one in my grade, no one to be exicted with for graduation, no one to laugh with in class, no one to pass notes to. in dance, only my brother would dance with me. no one else would touch me, not even my wrist. those years were some of the worse, because i had not kiyo, no linden, no eden to tell. i couldn't tell the younger kids. it was hell.
and all because of brynn.
so when bella first said she was friends with her, i was like 'What,! because i colnt belive it. this girl had atculy tried to pin the blame of one of the lies on bella, but i wasn't fooled. i accepted it though. i know i can't choose other's friends.
but today was to much. when bella brough brynn to this, this party, i felt my insides churnning, yearning to take brynn aside and scream at her,' how could you' and say i was sorry at the same time. i felt horrible. i got though the evening, but i hardly cracked a smile. i felt like just rumming of and crying. that was im doing now, facing my memories, the memories i tried to keep locked away. im just so shocked that bella could do this, bring the girl she knows destroyed me to this party, where i was suposed to be planning and having fun. i'm still reeling. i couln't leave, both my parents were busy, but oh how i wanted to leave, to run, to hide, to go home and cry and supress the memories. but they don't stop, i can still see her there, queen, her friends jeering at me, laughing when i hurt myself in pe, throwing things and calling insults, and laughing... the sound of her laughter hurts, hurts me inside so bad. and thats all i hear tonight.
i've tried to forgive her, i really have. i've prayed about it, prayed and prayed and tried. but i can't. i just can't. i hope tomorrow will be better. bella, i don't care about what you think now. tomoorow i'll probably be freaking out, thinking 'bella, please don't hate me', but right now, i am so... i don't know
angry and horrifide and tick off and heartbroken and shocked and upset and angry. thinking, how could you, and why and how could you do this to me.
and you know what!? frankly, im disapointed in you. disapointed and sorry. sorry that you can just forget. i just hope YOU don't act crazy around her. because that how i was, and it'll just be a matter of time. i don't give a flea's butt how this makes you feel, to me, right now, you deserve it.
anyway, more later.
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